The way I see things..
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Musings on a Hostel Nite
The year rushes to an end; it seems just a few days ago that I realised I have just one more semester left....and now this semester too has reached its final month. Things are happening too soon, or perhaps my processor has slowed down...I hardly know which.
The time has come for me to face the big questions, questions I find I am not ready to face yet - What have these four years meant to me? How have I changed? (I don't refer to the extra kilograms I have put on) Is this what I set out to be?
Doing a B.Tech was a mistake. I found that out long ago, but was afraid to own that my interests point to a totally different direction. Given the circumstances, I wonder whether I could have acquitted myself with more honour. Could I have yet done as was expected, and was my neglect of academic pursuits dishonourable? I must say that it was, at least to some extent. And yet, this conclusion rests on the assumption is that I walked into IIT a free man. A lot depends on whether we take that to be true or not.
Whatever be the case, I walk out of IIT by and large a free man. The choices I make from now onwards will be mine. Most importantly, I have the means to obtain a reasonable amount of the two main ingredients to freedom - money and knowledge. That is the silver lining.
am reminded constantly of the fact that I could have done so much more - even in the fields of study that interest me. But the milk is spilt, the wheels of time are turned, a phase in my life has come to an end and I am not allowed to look back for so long that I am distracted from the future.
My days at IIT have been carefree - never again will I live in the moment as I have done these past few years. Yet I carried the burden of knowing that my lifestyle was not sustainable. In the days to come, I will have to learn to bear the burdens of independence. There is no shying away from responsibility now.
As to how IIT has changed me - I must say that it has made me a somewhat better person. I have improved in understanding, I believe, though in manners, I remain as much a buffoon as ever.
As far as human relationships go, I will miss a few people - though I'm hoping that we will keep in touch. Some relationships work equally well online as they would when you are face-to-face while others are of a different nature. It remains to be seen whether anything can be salvaged of the friendships I have built in these four years. Posted by KRC. | Permalink | 3 Comments | Buzz It! | Links to this post
The year rushes to an end; it seems just a few days ago that I realised I have just one more semester left....and now this semester too has reached its final month. Things are happening too soon, or perhaps my processor has slowed down...I hardly know which.
The time has come for me to face the big questions, questions I find I am not ready to face yet - What have these four years meant to me? How have I changed? (I don't refer to the extra kilograms I have put on) Is this what I set out to be?
Doing a B.Tech was a mistake. I found that out long ago, but was afraid to own that my interests point to a totally different direction. Given the circumstances, I wonder whether I could have acquitted myself with more honour. Could I have yet done as was expected, and was my neglect of academic pursuits dishonourable? I must say that it was, at least to some extent. And yet, this conclusion rests on the assumption is that I walked into IIT a free man. A lot depends on whether we take that to be true or not.
Whatever be the case, I walk out of IIT by and large a free man. The choices I make from now onwards will be mine. Most importantly, I have the means to obtain a reasonable amount of the two main ingredients to freedom - money and knowledge. That is the silver lining.
am reminded constantly of the fact that I could have done so much more - even in the fields of study that interest me. But the milk is spilt, the wheels of time are turned, a phase in my life has come to an end and I am not allowed to look back for so long that I am distracted from the future.
My days at IIT have been carefree - never again will I live in the moment as I have done these past few years. Yet I carried the burden of knowing that my lifestyle was not sustainable. In the days to come, I will have to learn to bear the burdens of independence. There is no shying away from responsibility now.
As to how IIT has changed me - I must say that it has made me a somewhat better person. I have improved in understanding, I believe, though in manners, I remain as much a buffoon as ever.
As far as human relationships go, I will miss a few people - though I'm hoping that we will keep in touch. Some relationships work equally well online as they would when you are face-to-face while others are of a different nature. It remains to be seen whether anything can be salvaged of the friendships I have built in these four years. Posted by KRC. | Permalink | 3 Comments | Buzz It! | Links to this post
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